And the air lay heavy

On the lakes and the roadways,

For a heartbeat

I rested in your warmth,

Wrapped in your arms

Watching the world

But then the sun separated the mountains

From their lush greenness

And embarrassed them with fall

While I stripped you from my side

Like removing a Band-Aid

Because our needs were so far apart

And I knew

We would never be able to meet

At a mutual destination.

Lost, I thought,

I wandered the mountains

And ambled through the canyons.

I turned on all the lights

And danced all the dances

And followed every pathway

That flowed away from the taboo

But whenever the moon

Touched the top of the highest hill

It hurt my heart

And brought a certain longing

Choking my throat with unshed tears.

When the sun painted the sides of the mountains

With a gold brush

It brought my undisciplined thoughts

Back to you.

Everything did.

Funny how I saw you everywhere.

It was always the little things...

How your eyes crinkled at the corners

When you smiled...

How your smile was filled

With pleasure and delight...

How it followed me

Whenever I closed my eyes...

The lights can not chase away the shadows

That still linger wherever I am.

Dancing is like a pale reflection

Of what might have been living.

Your ghost still haunts my daydreams

Before I have a chance

To concentrate on something else.

You keep on returning to my mind, my dreams

As sure as spring turns to summer again.

Other eyes are not your eyes,

No other arms can comfort me.

Anyone not you

Is hollow with meaninglessness.

I ache with the longing for your touch,

Your ways, your arms

And every pathway headed for distant places

Still leads me back to you.

The world is a desert and I , a nomad

Always wandering and searching for home.

Every autumn leaf that falls

Is another kiss goodbye

To our summer years.

But I will always be parched

For everything that is you.